Sunday, November 9, 2008

When push comes to shove

It is quite unfortunate, I find, when life brings us to crossroads where we must choose and choose again, only to find ourselves at even bigger and more difficult pathways to pick from.

Every decision we make it is another learning experience, whether the right decision was made or not, we grow decision by decision, each choice by each choice. But as we grow and decide again and again, why is it that I find myself at an even more vulnerable state and than any other time? I suppose it's natural for that to happen; as time goes by and as we learn, the pressures and stakes grow larger, much more than just petty defiant childish games, when emotions just can not be a factor in any conclusion made.

And as we grow older, we face the similar question of duty and following our own dreams, time and time again. For the lucky ones, they are mere difficult decisions. For some, there is no choice.

Stuck in between a world where I've defined my dreams but now am doubtful of them and a world of the present, where it is so easy to stray from my doubtful dreams... and the last and most important world, a duty of which I must fulfill, I must say that it has not been a great process coming to a final conclusion. It is when a midpoint, a compromise cannot be made, where we have to sacrifice some things for others, our own wants for others' needs, our own dreams for others' dreams. I guess when it comes down to it, like always, it comes down to real priorities.

Some sacrifices were just not meant to be realized... and some dreams were meant to be let go...

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

This day and age...

I daresay I truly thought I misheard the TV when my mom was flipping through the channels and out came "... women have the lack of testicular power to run in office... "

Monday, November 3, 2008

Arrête.

Est-ce qu'il y a une syndrome ou le cerveau peut pas arrête, ou on pense trop sans arrête parce que c'est juste pas possible?? Oui ou non, moi, je suis arrivée à cet état, à cause de trop... trop de tout. C'est p-ê à cause de mon idée qu'on peut gérer des émotions par le contrôle des pensées... j'ai p-ê fait trop souvent, la gestion des émotions, mais.. doesn't matter... maintenant je sais seulement que ma tête est surchargée, c'est très difficile à m'endormir... je tjrs pense que je peux être fair qqch plus productif que de couchage... il y a tellement des choses dans la monde je dois apprendre et il faut qu'je ne perde pas de temps à dormir...

oh la vie. je sais pas pour qui j'écris cette poste, pour anonymous, jsais pas. mais jsais que maintenant jsuis un peu plus calme. juste un peu.